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| 06.16.05 (8:35 pm) [edit] |
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I struggled over whether to share this or not... but, I decided to. It is one of those things that makes you laugh and cry at the same time. I found this letter in my AOL "filing cabinet". I didn't know it was there. It made my heart pound. It is an email from Ali when she went to Hawaii a little over a year ago. I was touched by two things... one, her attitude despite just finding out a month before that the cancer was back; and two, her reference to Heaven. I didn't remember her saying this, so, I found it a little ironic because when she was very sick, I told her that I thought Heaven would look a lot like Hawaii... they didn't call it paradise for nothing. I think it is her way of telling me... she's doing alright. Subj: ALOHA !! Date: 6/7/2004 7:27:46 PM Eastern Daylight Time From: Bluecrush1116 To: Century18romantc HI momma! I miss you ! I hope your having fun in Grand Haven... Hawaii is so beautiful. I think this is what heaven is going to be like, no joke. Yesterday the flight was soo long and we were real tired. Hawaii is 5 hours earlier than indiana so its hard getting used to the time... So today we woke up and went to breakfast and went to the beach and layed out. we got little floaties and laid in the water, ENough about that more importantly a surfer guy (very cute) asked megan and i if we wanted lessons hahaha. we had to say no at the time. = ( So yea that was the highlight of my year. There are like 1,000 surfers out seriously. i cant get a good view though i am blind without my glasses. ERRR. I have seen a few cute guys, alot of jappanese people. Its hard to believe i am closer to japan than u = ( lol I miss you momma. I just wanted to tell you we were all fine and megan says hello and she loves you . SHe will probably write to you later. I hope your having a good week with craig and i am sooo exited to see my room when i get back... I love you e-mail me back ALOHA ! |
posted by: billlyryan (reply)
post date: 06.16.05 (5:45 pm)
Wow...
posted by: lindy (reply)
post date: 06.16.05 (6:14 pm)
Thank you for sharing this. Goodness, Lori. You truly raised such a beautiful person. Her love for you is so obvious. And it is apparent that you had the kind of relationship where you shared everything. She was talking to you about cute surfer guys. haha. It's lovely, it really is. Her strength is shining through in this gem and it's easy to see where she got it.
posted by: JAS (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (12:49 am)
Your right Lori, I think the fact that you just found this email again, is a sign from Ali that she is alright. Just like the flower that popped up in my yard, the spring after grandma died. It was one she kept telling me to take home and i never did. It seems that small things happen to remind us of them. You did raise an amazing girl, thank you for sharing this with everyone....love you..........
posted by: JAS (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (1:25 am)
Let me rephrase that, I said you raised an amazing girl, wrong, you raised TWO amazing girls. Megan you are amazing....and so is your mom........love u both
posted by: newbie (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (6:12 am)
I agree with you. I believe that you're unknowingly keeping and finding that e-mail is not a mere coincidence. And I love Judy's story about a flower popping up in the yard that her mom wanted her to have! These two stories are sooo cool!
I was just thinking this morning about my late grandmother. I can't wait to see her again so I can tell her how much my daughter Ursula is just like her. I asked the Lord to tell her for me. Tell her I love and miss her too. AFter reading y'alls stories, I believe He will!!
Jodi
posted by: Laura S. (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (11:42 am)
Hey Lori,
That is such a beautiful email. She was such a dynamic person and it feels like shes right there when I read that email. Hopefully us girls can come visit you soon, Ok? I'm leaving next friday so hopefully i'll be able to see you before then. I miss you. You are a strong, amazing person and i think of you every day.
posted by: altricial (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (5:40 pm)
I read this yesterday. And then I read it again today. As soon as I opened it, the first thought that popped into my head was "I miss you." It was that first line. The one after "HI momma!" And then again, toward the end. It crept in to my head. So much that this quick note said.
posted by: altricial (reply)
post date: 06.17.05 (5:41 pm)
I tagged you. Check out my 6/17 post. I hope you'll play.
posted by: Alli (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (7:36 am)
HAHA ali and her surfer boys.
That was one thing me and her always shared in common. We wanted to surf sooo bad. We were even gonna end up surfing on lake michigan if we had to (we even researched into that)! :-)
If her heaven is just like hawaii she is is loving every minute of it. Hawaii is wonderful and so was ali. I think about her and you and megan everyday.
Love always.
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:44 am)
Reply to: billlyryan
I know. :)
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:46 am)
Reply to: lindy
thank you lindy... we really did have such a great relationship... I feel the same way about my relationship with Megan... brings me great joy... kind of like your roadtrip with your girls!
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:46 am)
Reply to: JAS
it's comforting isn't it. even if others see us as reaching. love you.
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:48 am)
Reply to: newbie
I believe he will too. Ursula is a beautiful name by the way. It's nice to see traits of the ones we loved in our little ones... sometimes! :)
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:49 am)
Reply to: Laura
I would love for you all to come over when I'm home. After I read this... I woke up the next morning feeling like I had talked to her... or that she was right around the corner. blessing and a curse. you are a good friend laura... hope we can get pizza very soon.
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (10:51 am)
Reply to: Alli
hi alli... can't you just hear her... OMG-- Palm trees...I knew it would be like this! this time she'll be able to take the surfing lessons without worrying about bloodcounts or anything else. that's my hope and i'm sticking to it. Nice to hear from you.
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (11:14 am)
Reply to: altricial
I know exactly what you mean... it is so amazing that you noticed that... I thought the same thing! It was almost eerie... but in a good way. The fact that you saw that brought tears to my eyes... can't explain it... but you are right--so much said in a little note. It is like finding a treasure map in a bottle.
posted by: LoriSchuster (reply)
post date: 06.18.05 (11:15 am)
Reply to: altricial
I'm honored :) i'm going to go try it now.
posted by: your sissy (reply)
post date: 06.21.05 (2:01 pm)
Death is the next great adventure, by the time we get there she will be surfing like a pro and bonus no sharks!
posted by: FinalyFree (reply)
post date: 06.21.05 (6:52 pm)
How precious a find Lori. I sob everytime I read something like this on your blog, tears of pain and tears of joy. I honestly believe Ali lives on today through you and her family. Your memories are such treasures. I realize some things, like this e-mail is bittersweet, but I certainly believe it is a sign that she is alright and she wants you to know now as she did then that she loves you :)
Grace, beauty, humor, strength.
Alison Haley Cloud
Nov. 16, 1987-March 1, 2005
