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Backward turn backward...
01.22.07 (6:43 pm)   [edit]
To a child, the world is an open book. There are not chapters, pages, or periods. They take on the world one footstep—one sidewalk crack at a time.

Don’t you miss the random frivolity of childhood where each day was an adventure of your own making?

When we were little, my sister and I would put on tulle petticoats and frilly t-shirts and dance around the basement to my dad’s 8-track tape of Bizet’s Carmen. We would gallop around like we were on horses and occasionally stop to kiss a handsome soldier (a tall metal pole). It never occurred to us that we might look a bit odd. How else were a 6 and 8 year old from East Toledo going to kiss a handsome Spanish soldier?

Our imaginations made life magical and gave us that perpetual window of mystery and hope for what might be possible in the future.

My grandmother’s farm was a fertile breeding ground for our wild imaginations. The girls’ bedroom had a dressing table with a blue tulle skirt around it and beautiful chenille bedspreads. There were huge old trees out the front window and in my mind it was a Southern Plantation… despite its location in Blissfield, Michigan. The “red room” had a vent that looked straight down into the living room, allowing us to listen in on conversations. This was a vital location when playing spies. Unfortunately, it was also the ‘ghost room’ and we didn’t go in there…unless we were in a group. To this day, we all recall that room having a dark and ominous feeling about it.

In my grandma’s basement there were two barrels filled with clothes, umbrellas and shoes from the late 1800s. It was the kind of attire that all properly bred Southern Belles from Michigan wore on the tire swing or to play Monopoly.

I was a weird little girl. We played Lost in Space, the Partridge Family, pioneers, and had a band that played the Beatles, Neil Diamond and Carole King. I spent hours and hours creating a happy life for Barbie and her friends. I thought the fact that I was good at Monopoly assured me of a rich financial future. I wrote letters to Bobby Sherman.

I liked to walk through the “dark” woods along the river and imagine how it looked when the Indians lived there. I had a Gilbert Chemistry set and pretended I was Madame Curie and a daddy longlegs spider that I kept in a powder compact and took out for walks… replacing him (or her) as necessary—that is until I read Charlotte’s web.

I was never bored and rarely without an adventure.

As adults we have given up the concept of life being an open book. We tend only to see the period at the end of the sentence.

When we had our Moving party in Goshen, I made everyone dress up from the decade in which they were in high school. Not only was it hysterical to see all of my normally staid and respectable friends in leisure suits and funky hair styles…but, I felt thirty years younger.

I think that left to my own devices, I would spit in the face of decorum. I would swim in the sea of my quirkiness, wear Edwardian evening gowns to dinner and spend a day speaking nothing but French. I would change my haircolor with the seasons and my mind as I saw fit.

Certainly, as an adult, some restraint is necessary. But wouldn’t it be nice if every once in a while we read past the period and drank a mint julep on the veranda of our plantation or galloped off into the sunset into the arms of a handsome Spanish soldier.

Backward, turn backward, Oh Time! in your flight
Make me a child again--just for tonight!
--author unknown

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I think someone is trying to tell me something...
01.18.07 (7:21 pm)   [edit]
Well, the computer is fixed...but our internet is down. It is snowing...not a lot but it doesn't take a lot. A breeze...a light rain. We are going to have to find a new company. I am currently at Panera. I want to answer comments but no time tonight. Hopefully tomorrow. I miss everyone. Have a good night. Lori
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Promises...
01.15.07 (10:45 pm)   [edit]


Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening 

by Robert Frost 

Whose woods these are I think I know. 

His house is in the village, though; 

He will not see me stopping here 

To watch his woods fill up with snow. 



My little horse must think it's queer 

To stop without a farmhouse near 

Between the woods and frozen lake 

The darkest evening of the year. 



He gives his harness bells a shake 

To ask if there's some mistake. 

The only other sound's the sweep 

Of easy wind and downy flake. 



The woods are lovely, dark, and deep, 

But I have promises to keep, 

And miles to go before I sleep, 

And miles to go before I sleep.

I thought about this poem this morning as I looked out the window over the snow-covered landscape; the trees outlined in a blanket of white that traveled from our front door down to the lake, which looked as if it was made of stainless steel.

I have stood in those woods and lay down on the slope overlooking the frozen lake.  I have felt his weariness and understood the silent allure of the lovely dark and solitary woods.  

The woods are dark, but the snow is beautiful…and as the sound of harness bells shatter the stillness of the night air—he must make a choice.

I am struggling with the concept of being accountable.  I understand that this is not practical or particularly adult of me.  I am searching for a sense of peace in my life…a period of quiet, uninterrupted nothingness.

But that is not entirely true either.

How is it that all of your cells can cry out for solitude yet at the same time so fiercely fear monotony?  There are not a lot of things left for me to fear, but, I do fear that I will die having led an ordinary life.  By this I mean that I do not want my days to simply blend together.  I want to explore and exhaust my potential.  Yet, here I am—motionless between the woods and frozen lake.

I have a lot of ground to cover. For now it seems I am powerless to move.

...the woods are lovely dark and deep... 

Sometimes the most difficult promises to keep are those we make to ourselves.

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Grace, beauty, humor, strength.
Alison Haley Cloud
Nov. 16, 1987-March 1, 2005